Out with the yucky in with the Good

Kevin and I have both been thoroughly enjoying this new journey we are on. I have enjoyed working, which feels like an extension of who I am...an outlet for my passions and creativity. It has made me much more peaceful when at home and with the kids.
There are nights like last night that we have the "big" frustrating talks that clarify what we value, what we need to change, and where we are headed as individuals, a couple, and as a family. I remember while we were dating and engaged I feared confrontation and the hard questions because I was afraid Kevin would say "I am out of here" or "this is not worth it," and I was actually afraid that I might say that too. But each time one of these tough talks comes I am proven to be wrong. Our love is strong enough and just like "our song" that we played on our wedding day, "The God of second chance picks them up and lets them dance through a world that is unkind and all this time they're sharing with the One who picks them up when they've come undone beneath the storm beneath the sun, and once again here you stand your day has come" .
I would be a fool not to be transparent, not to let other couples... other best friends and lovers know how hard it is to have a deep and connected marriage. I would be a liar if I didn't say that sometimes it is easier to let things slide. To do what's easy and not do what's hard. But I encourage and implore you to fight. Fight the fear of feeling weak, fight the fear of being vulnerable and fight the fear that you may not have what it takes. Your giving may not always result in receiving. I am blessed that Kevin and I do give and take and share. Sometimes this process of purpose and freedom in a marriage comes from painstaking talks and bruised egos. But I am glad every morning after those talks because hope that there can be change and that we can be different becomes a little more real each time. Thank you my love(Kevin) without you I would not get rid of all my yuckiness, at least not as quickly.