Missing my dad.

Tonight I am quite emotional. It has been 9 months since we said good bye to my dad. Tomorrow would have been his 56th birthday and my mom and dads 32nd wedding anniversary. I called mom earlier to let her know how much I have been missing dad lately. The last couple of years before his death he was very ill and I was dealing with a lot of issues from my younger years. During that time I pulled away from him as I healed and dealt with those issues. I let mom know that I missed out on those last years of his life and missed the friendship and father daughter relationship we had had before that. One of the biggest things that God was healing in me was that I wanted so much for dad to just say "I LOVE YOU" . I remember one of the last nights that I was able to go in while he was still not totally sedated when I walked in and spoke he opened his eyes, grabbed my hand, and tried to say something with such intensity. He knew I was there. I turned to a family friend that had been there praying and sobbed. That is all I can share tonight. Pray for the family.